2020/09/17

 Ok I'll just come out and say it! I'm interested in losing weight. But what that actually contains is way bigger than a number on the scale, like seriously, it means I'm interested in:

  • moving my body more and getting better at it
  • eating nutritious food and not whatever I can randomly find
  • sleeping more comfortably and deeply
  • being less afraid of the stigma of being overweight/out of shape
  • stop feeling held back by low stamina 
  • play sports more comfortably and for fun
I don't know what I weigh at this very second but it's almost 300lbs, if not 300lbs. 

I guess the first step is accepting there's a "problem" and trying to figure out how to fix it. I don't think there's anything to feel guilty about or even really a problem with being at a higher weight, it's about my habits and how I live my life. I'd like to spend time learning what a day in my life should look like, on work days and on 'off' days. 

I love planning and I am not great at taking action, so even though I started this hoping to have somewhere to vent about my ideas and plans, I want to hold myself accountable to following through on things, too. Like today, I need to ask myself what I want to eat, how I want to move, what I want to do in my free time, do I have any personal business I need to get done? Here are my answers, I guess:

I am feeling hungry for breakfast. I'd like some coffee and I'm thinking about having smoked salmon, but I wonder if I shouldn't have some eggs? Well, if I'm in the mood for salmon I'll probably have that. I have leftover pea soup that I made, and if I'm hungry this afternoon I will probably have some of that with some baguette and roasted or boiled vegetables (I have corn and asparagus I need to eat). Avocado toast sounds good, but I think my avocados are still green.

I want to take the dogs for a walk today before I bring Z back to the vet at 11:00. I should get to my dad's house around 10:00 and I have a new episode of MFM to listen to, so I can take a nice walk with them and really enjoy it. I would like to move even more than that, so at some point I'd like to take a long walk alone. Maybe I can go to Lake N. tonight and do a lap and some stretching. 

Besides that, I should bring the tickets for a show that got cancelled with me so I can stop by the record store that sold them and get a refund. They open at 10AM so I will have to do that as I'm coming home from bringing Z to the vet. I'm also interested in going to IKEA to check out a bed that is in stock that I think I'd like. In between and besides all of this, I think I'm going to bring a book with me so I can read in my free time. 

So to overview the day:
Breakfast ✔️
Get dressed✔️
Grab book, coffee, tickets, warmish clothes (it's chilly outside today!)✔️
Go to dad's, walk dogs, get sample of Z poo✔️
Bring Z to vet✔️
Take dogs on another quick walk ✔️
Bring tickets to record shop ✔️
Take shower ✔️
Go to IKEA or buy Marketplace bed
Go on walk around Nokomis or to farm w dogs
Pack for cabin

Food so far:
Salmon Smørrebrød
Coffee
Pea Soup, baguette with butter

I also need a shower and it would be great to trim my nails. I wonder if you can create a calendar in blogger?

Ok, so I couldn't get a refund for the tickets today. Annoying, but life goes on. My friend J who bought them will have to do it.

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